Just a thought

Just a thought...

Alangkah ruginya saya sekiranya mengikut saranan seorang OnG, a specialist, with a decades of practice as OnG, lulusan dr sebuah Uni berprestij dr Dublin, Ireland utk menggugurkan kandungan se awal usia 7 minggu...

I remember it was a Wednesday morning. I ran a pegnancy test on my own and it was positive. I was delighted but did not want to be overexcited. So we went to see doc Y at one of the private clinic/hospital bersalin for confirmation. She was the same OG when I was pregnant with Ammar, 10 yrs ago. So I told her everything, including the part where I took some prescription, claimed by her that was not supposed to be taken by pregnant woman. She was mad at me - yelah, like I knew I was pregnant while taking that particular prescription! So she did a scan to the fetus. She said it was not in a good shape, not normal for 7 weeks fetus. I remember she said, "Jumaat ni dtg cuci! Tgk gambar baby you ni, tak normal shape dia!". I said nothing more. Then she added, "If I were you, I cuci, you already have a special kid, can you coupe with another one? Your baby could be cacat, down, atau ada heart problem! I don't think you can coupe with that!" . I felt like someone has slapped me hard on my face. There was a long silence in the room. I could only imagine the 'abortion' process that I knew I could not bare to go thru. Dlm hati saya merelakan apa pun keadaan baby saya, saya terima, but to terminate the pregnancy...

I held back the tears along the way home. I did not want my husband and my son to see me crying. Tp sampai di rumah airmata tak tertahankan,I cried my heart out until my pillow was wet with tears. After so many years of prayers, suddenly God answered it, but then... Luckily I have a husband with positive attitudes. I knew he was frustrated too, but he managed to hide his feeling from me. So he suggested for 2nd opinion, off to KJMC we went to see OnG Dr Fatima Najla. Her words were so soothing and comforting, saying that there was nothing wrong with the image of the fetus. She said why should I terminate the pregnancy? Berdosa! One good news led to another and the baby grew just fine inside my womb. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. It was like a miracle to me, Dia yang Pengasih telah makbulkan doa saya.

Betapa kesalnya saya dgn Dr Y yg barangkali lupa kuasanya tuhan. Bg saya beliau spt tlh menjatuhkan hukuman sblm terbuktinya satu kesalahan. My baby proves her wrong.
Saya tahu tiada manusia pun yang sempurna di dunia ini, begitu juga baby saya. So far dia sihat walafiat, tiada cacat cela pun bg saya. I remember the first time when the midwives held the baby to me, and I saw her 2 tiny feet, I thought she was the most perfect baby in the world! Pun saya sedar harta, suami dan anak2 hanya pinjaman, saya ttp bersyukur seadanya.


ALEESYA NAJLA SOPHIA - no matter what the future might held - be you normal or special like your brother - you are one perfect baby for Ummi, Ayah and Abang Ammar. Terimakasih ya Allah atas kurniaan ini!