Just a thought... Alangkah ruginya saya sekiranya mengikut saranan seorang OnG, a specialist, with a decades of practice as OnG, lulusan dr sebuah Uni berprestij dr Dublin, Ireland utk menggugurkan kandungan se awal usia 7 minggu... I remember it was a Wednesday morning. I ran a pegnancy test on my own and it was positive. I was delighted but did not want to be overexcited. So we went to see doc Y at one of the private clinic/hospital bersalin for confirmation. She was the same OG when I was pregnant with Ammar, 10 yrs ago. So I told her everything, including the part where I took some prescription, claimed by her that was not supposed to be taken by pregnant woman. She was mad at me - yelah, like I knew I was pregnant while taking that particular prescription! So she did a scan to the fetus. She said it was not in a good shape, not normal for 7 weeks fetus. I remember she said, "Jumaat ni dtg cuci! Tgk gambar baby you ni, tak normal shape dia!". I said nothing more. Then she...
Sejak Isnin kemarin, makonyo bermulolah kehidupe mokcik sbg krismas tree...Pagi2 di bahuku ada 2-3 beg dan seorang baby utk diusung dlm kete. Suspen gilo mokcik nak drive bawak Miss P(Pocahontasku)wehhh.. (Miss P : Jeet - I loikeee...). Pasalnya, dia ni klu taim kamok2 tu mmg ler mendera perasaanku, nak2 taim dia nak tido, lobang mana nak korek carik buai klu dah dlm kete tu kamok2 nak tido wehhh. Asalnya mokcik trauma sket pasai ada satu mlm menggu lepas, Miss P payohlah nak tido sambil dtg kamok2 dia tu. Mokcik ajak Pokcik masuk kete pusing-pusing ini chan baik musti dia terus terlelap dlm kete. Harapang dan anganangku punah semata-mata sbb dia terus kamok2 dlm kete, so kenalah kami patah balik, masuk buai terus lena. Hoi hoi ya hoi... lajak perahu buleh ku undur, lajak ajaq berbuai takleh ku brek derrr...hai nasib badan... Krismas tree in action depan umah pengasuh. Ko ni Ammar tak habih2 nak cium kepala adik tu! 7.30 a.m. – Krismas tree mengangkut beg dan segala perkakasan dlm kete...
Seingat aku sepanjang 16 tahun hidup nih... maksud aku, 16 tambah 10, ok, sekarang tambah lagi 10, dowh! baru 2 kali aku masuk wad. Sekali masa kecik2 terminum minyak tanah (minyak buat bakar dapur cap kupu2 dedulu tu), punyalah gelojoh, dah tak tau nak differentiate antara minyak ngan air dah (bukan salah aku la kan sbb kecik lagik), kali kedua masa melahirkan Ammar. Sakit kepala ini sangat buat aku merelakan nak masuk wad kali ketiga. Dgn nekad, tekad yg bulat aku memberanikan diri buat CT Scan atas nasihat doktor. Mak aihhhh....masa nak tunggu result punyalah the Dragon in my stomach! Aku ingat cam derita jek wat scan ni sbb ada member ckp sakit jek masa dia masukkan cecair (for contrast) ikut vena tuh. alhamdulillah prosedur berjalan dgn lancarnya. Lepas doktor lunch (tima kasih, punyalah lama tunggu hang mamu oiiii, sib baik kacak cam hero Hindustan so I forgive u !) Muka doktor pulak serius giler masa tgk xray result tuh, aku apa lagik, dok berzikir pepanjang dlm dad...
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Amboi, sakan holiday!